I have been having some bouts of depression again the last few days. Hopefully this will change in the next few days as the weather starts to warm up and I am able to start walking over to meet Chuck again. I bought a pair of rain boots (black with different colored dots and umbrellas all over them and a liner too) to wear when it starts to melt outside. Once it is warm enough to start walking again and it gets slushy with huge puddles, I want nothing to stop me or get in my way of walking. I have gained a few pounds from not being faithful with my walking these last 4 wks. Kind of disheartening. I think I may have burnt myself out with the halls for it has come down to feeling like I am going to gag almost every time I think about facing those halls again. The last couple of weeks all I have done is empty the trash a couple times during the week, and when I go out there I am reminded of how much I don't miss it. I have become a hermit of sorts which I can have a tendency to do. I am a very introverted person by nature. I have learned to be socialable from the jobs I have had but I prefer solitude more then anything else.
I took a rohrshach test on line once and it said my most dominant quality was peacefulness. I have a tendency to agree, this is very true. At the same time I have enormous amounts of anxiety but have learned to mask it. I have been an anxious person ever since I can remember in fact I probably wouldn't know what to do with myself if I never felt any anxiety again it is that deeply ingrained in me. On the other hand my cat loves to sit on my lap while I am at the computer and would for hours if I were to let him, because of my peacefulness. Unfortunately for him my leg gets sore or I have to go potty or both or something else. Bad for him good for me. It is hard to type with a cat on your lap.
On another note, my husband ordered me a 2lb. box of Oak's chocolates from Oshkosh Wis. where I am from. They are home made and hand dipped and everything and are by far the best chocolates I have ever tasted. I got them today along with my boots. He said he ordered all my favorites and some of his as well. He loves the meltaways which are by far some of their best, but I love the ones dipped in chocolate and then rolled in crushed nuts both vanilla and chocolate filled. I love those 2 kinds without nuts as well. Haystacks, english toffee, mmmm. What a treat this will be for both of us.
Anyway this enough blathering for awhile and I have some chores to do before he gets home. Talk to you again later maybe.
I took a rohrshach test on line once and it said my most dominant quality was peacefulness. I have a tendency to agree, this is very true. At the same time I have enormous amounts of anxiety but have learned to mask it. I have been an anxious person ever since I can remember in fact I probably wouldn't know what to do with myself if I never felt any anxiety again it is that deeply ingrained in me. On the other hand my cat loves to sit on my lap while I am at the computer and would for hours if I were to let him, because of my peacefulness. Unfortunately for him my leg gets sore or I have to go potty or both or something else. Bad for him good for me. It is hard to type with a cat on your lap.
On another note, my husband ordered me a 2lb. box of Oak's chocolates from Oshkosh Wis. where I am from. They are home made and hand dipped and everything and are by far the best chocolates I have ever tasted. I got them today along with my boots. He said he ordered all my favorites and some of his as well. He loves the meltaways which are by far some of their best, but I love the ones dipped in chocolate and then rolled in crushed nuts both vanilla and chocolate filled. I love those 2 kinds without nuts as well. Haystacks, english toffee, mmmm. What a treat this will be for both of us.
Anyway this enough blathering for awhile and I have some chores to do before he gets home. Talk to you again later maybe.
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