Here I go again

It has been a few years since the last time I had a blog and I stumbled across this by accident. I figure it must be the L-rd that helped me discover this so here I go again.
Last time I was blogging my life was a mess. I was so depressed all I wanted to do was die. I was so homesick and didn't have any access to my antidepressants. Life was miserable.
That was about 4 years ago. Since then much has changed on the inside of me. All that has happened on the outside is that I am getting old.
My husband and I started to attend a messianc congregation 5 yrs. ago. One Saturday there was a lady from I think it was somewhere in Africa who was speaking. At the end of the service she said people could come up for prayer if they wanted to. I did. She came to me and sensed a spirit of death over me and told me to start shouting out "I don't want to die" She laid her hand on my forehead and I went down to the floor. It was after this that I stopped wanting to die. Then later that summer (2005) we went to a conference in southern Minnesota and a man who was speaking prayed over me and it felt like my heart was being covered with a healing balm. It was great. I started a diet and exercise and started to lose weight and eventually was able to get back on my anti depressants. (I seem to be one of the few people out there they actually help, ALOT.) I lost 130lbs. all together. It took me a year and a half. I used to be sick all the time but after I lost the weight all that went away.
I was aquaintance raped in 1985. It was why I allowed myself to gain so much weight. I didn't want to be attractive anymore after that combined with some real negative relationships. I lost several years of my life because of this incident but G-d started to gradually heal me. I like to say that I am a work in progress because He isn't finished with me yet. I have come a long way but still have a long way to go.
I actually accepted salvation April 29th, 1978. I was 20 at the time. Drugs and alcohol so badly crippled my life that at the time all I could handle was standing in a corner folding clothes at a Goodwill store. I was part of their rehab program and was living in a halfway house for mental basket cases. (Like I was) I would talk to no one. And then one day someone who worked in the store started to talk to me about G-d and it gave me hope and so I decided to ask G-d for His free gift of salvation through His Son Jesus and it started to change my life. However being the stubborn, bull headed person I can be I insisted many times doing things my way and back sliding and sowing the wind and reaping the wirlwind and it wasn't until the mid 1990's that I finally started to get serious about my life with G-d. (The slash where the o should be is a sign of respect unto Him for anyone who may wonder.)
I know how things are becoming these days and how people are becoming more and more hostile to Yeshua(Jesus) and Christianity because Jesus claimed and claims to be the only way to G-d, but after all these years I can honestly attest to this being the truth simply because of the things I have seen and been through in my own life. I am sure of Him whom I have believed in. I will get into reasons why as I write more entries. This is enough for today. I have much to say and I sense not much more time to say it in. May the L-rd grant me enough time to say everything I believe He wants me to say and get out for Him.
Until next time,
Shalom