Hi Tis I

          Saw M on the way over to meet Chuck today only I didn't realize it was him until it was too late. He had a cigarette hanging out of his mouth and it totally blew me away. All I thought was oh no not you too. I seem to have a life surrounded by smokers, not that Im surrounded by M but being around smokers seems to be an inevitability in my life. Funny thing is he never struck me as being a smoker.
          When I was home for Easter, everyone was smoking there as well even people who didn't smoke before were doing it now. Chuck was miserable and I just wanted one. The craving never seems to really go away. But I made a committment to myself after I lost my weight to make healthy choices and to do healthy things for me instead of choosing negative things for myself anymore. All the bad choices I made for myself in the past led to my eventual downfall and I just don't want to sabotage myself anymore. So to all you smokers out there, you too M, smoke away, knock yourselves out, but as for me I need to try and stay strong and true to myself and to do what I know G-d wants me to do. This is for Him and me.
          And M, my prayer for you is that someday you will choose to do nothing but healthy things for yourself as well. Sorry I was so shocked.