Passover

          Well the time has finally come to talk about Jesus being the passover lamb. All though I have a Bible nearby I am not going to quote scripture and verse. I am just going to put the books down that the info I am giving out are in so that hopefully anyone who reads this will grab a Bible, go to the books I have mentioned and search for themselves and read even more.
          All through out the Bible beginning with the book of Genesis blood sacrifices are mentioned. I don't know why G-d requires them but I know He likes them and they are a major part of who He is. I know it has to do with the forgiveness of sins because it says so in the Bible.
          In the book of Exodus when G-d was going to send the last plague upon the Egyptians, which was the plague of the death of the first born, He told Moses to take hyysop which is a type of bush or weed and to kill a lamb and to dip the hyysop into the lambs blood and brush the doorposts of the jews homes with the blood so that He could see which homes had the blood on the doorposts and he would passover those homes and not kill the firstborn of the homes that had the blood on the doorposts. This last plague was the one that caused the Egyptians to let the hebrews leave Egypt for good and set out on the journey for the land which G-d had promised to Abraham and his descendants way back in the book of Genesis.
          The passover as it is called is something that G-d required the hebrews to celebrate every year so that they would never forget. It is still observed today every year as a remembrance.
          In old testament times G-d forgave the Jews sins with Lambs being sacrificed on the altar in the temple. In the book of Hebrews it says without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness for sin.
          Before I go any farther I would like to say that I don't have all the answers and probably never will as long as I am running around in this suit of flesh. I am putting this out here to the best of my knowledge because it is what I believer G-d wants me to do.
          In the book of John when Jesus comes to the area where John the Baptist is baptizing people as He also was baptized by him, at one point John speaks up and says "Behold the lamb of G-d who takes away the sin(s) of the world." Jesus was born for only one purpose, to be the lamb of G-d who takes away the sin(s) of the world. He was sacrificed on a Roman cross which was the most brutal form of death at the time. His blood spilled out freely on the ground and was shed for everyone both Jew and Gentile as this was part of G-d's plan from the beginning of time. This final sacrifice of Jesus satisfied G-d's wrath for sin, once and for all. We can now come to Him freely and without concern of His not hearing us any longer because of what Jesus did. However the only thing that He requires of us in order to come to Him so freely is to ask for His free gift of salvation through His son Jesus and His sacrifice on the cross. We will never be able to truly come to Him unless we do this. After this we must turn away from our old lifestyles and sin and live for Him. Paul says in 1st Corinthians, that we become bondservants and that our lives our no longer our own, but His to do with as He chooses. Paul says in Phillipians we are to work out our own salvation with fear and trembling. 
          Some people believe in the doctrine of once saved always saved and that you can still get to heaven even if you continue in your old lifestyle and habits, but this is simply not the case. Before you decide to get saved or ask for the free gift of salvation, you need to sit down and count the cost as to weather you are going to be able to or even want to work it through. There is a price to be paid, but in lieu of what Jesus did for us and the suffering He had to endure, it is a very small price to pay and especially for an eternity with Him and G-d the Father and the Holy Spirit, and for joy unspeakable. No more tears, or sadness, or sickness, or disease, or death. Just peace, and joy, and bliss. There is a verse in I believe it is 11Corinthians, might be 1st Corinthians, which says "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, neither has entered into the heart of man the things which G-d has prepared for those that love Him.
          There is so much more to all of this I am only giving the basics as directed. It should be enough for basic understanding of sin and salvation and will hopefully stir up a persons curiosity to know more and investigate for themselves. The internet is full of websites to learn more and inquire about these things. There are also plenty of books and video tapes and audio for those who want to know more and I will write more as G-d directs me. Above all get a Bible that you can understand (I recommend the New King James version) and read it and read it and read it. Pray before you read it and ask G-d to give you wisdom as to what you are reading and to open your spiritual eyes to the truths He wants to show you. And He will. 

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          Well here is to another successful Saturday under my belt. Good food and good walk time at the mall. I found a medallion at Ragstock with a lion in the middle of it. If people comment on it I am going to tell them that it represents the Lion of the tribe of Judah namely Yeshua(Jesus). It is a good witnessing tool. Subtle, yet can tell a story if needed. Chuck got his camo trousers shortened, and there was something in the air over at the mall today that was making both of us sneeze. They are going to remodel the first floor of the wing that Old Navy is on and they have already taken up the tiling floor. We were wondering if that might not be the cause, hmmmmm? We got all of our shopping done tonight so that we can both have a lazy late night tonight and a lazy day tomorrow as well. This also gives time to get a walk in tomorrow too.
          Anyway all my chores for this evening are finished and I don't have to think about anything that needs to be done till I get up whenever tomorrow. Happy sleep time to whomever may read this. Goodnight.

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          I was reading over a surgeon's blog on blog's of note and realized that I do not have the gift of gab neither physically nor on proverbial paper plus I am a Jesus freak. No wonder no one really likes to read my blog. Its ok though because those who are meant to read will read it. God will direct them this way and if I help only one person by the things I have to say and they may get saved, then that is all that matters. To God and my own self I must be true.
          I am walking over to meet Chuck again today. I missed it yesterday. I like to get as much walking in during the week as I can and it has only been over there lately. I am hoping that I will want to get out more once the weather starts warming up. I actually did a little weight lifting last night and think I will tonight as well.
          I am looking forward to tomorrow and Saturday, they are my 2 most favorite days of the week. I dislike Sunday the most.
          I feel a discourse coming on soon talking about why Jesus is the "Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world" namely the passover sacrificed lamb. God has been laying this on my heart to present it in as clear and distinct manner as I possibly can. Most likely sometime next week because it will take a little bit to get verses together and to let Him tell me what He wants said. He is already doing that to a certain point now but I want to wait a few days to see if there is more than whats been going through my mind the last few days.
          Anyway talk at you later I gotta go.

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          I just wanted to share some things that are on my mind.
          I walked over to Q yesterday to pick Chuck up and I got there a little earlier than usual. I saw M's boss R walking through the parking lot. He looked right at me and I knew that he knew it was me. Anyway I mentioned it to Chuck who started talking about M and what a nice guy he used to be and how chatty he used to be and how he just ignores him now and behaves snobby. I feel bad about this as well.
          I would like to mention here that I noticed a change in M ever since he was hired for a new department at Q. He went to a bike show that september 2007 and was a different person from the time he came back on. The moment I saw him after he had gotten back I knew something was different about him. He became less and less like his old self from that point on. He may be making more money in his new department but I have always sensed that the job isn't him. Its too bad people have to let themselves get inslaved to money and sell out who they are and what is really them, for money or whatever.
         I can't see myself ever doing something like that. It is too important for me to be me then to sell myself out for any job and or especially money. I loathe

 money. I would much rather be me any day then to have to sacrifice myself just for a job and money or anything like that. But people do it all the time and are miserable. How sad.
          M, my prayer for you is that you find yourself again someday and become committed to being you again no matter what. And that once you find yourself you will never sell yourself out again to anything or anyone ever again. I pray you get saved and sell yourself out to God and God alone. He is the only one worth selling out to.
          Well thats it for today.

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          I am feeling very down tonight. I started out with a mission and a purpose today and feel like I got side tracked somewhere along the way. Wound up watching a few things on youtube that have really dragged me down. Too much icky stuff in one sitting has an effect on me. I need to remember this and limit the negative things I let into my mind. Input output what goes in is what comes out.
          Anyway just a little chatter before I move on to my next thing this evening.
See ya.

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          I thought I would do something different today and put up a backround color as well.
          Good day today but we never did get our shopping done at Walmart and missed 1 trip around the 2nd floor at the MOA. We wound up eating at Mystic Lake Casino instead of Old Country Buffet. I am glad we did the food is always so good there. I had a great time at Savers. Found a cute little dress for Oceanna. Tried on a bunch of stuff but only bought one thing for myself. Chuck was the one who found the stuff over there today. More camo (what else?). I am trying to switch most of my summer shirts from shirts to blouses and I found another one to add to the collection today. I like blouses better.
          We never did get to the  movies, not enough time. The Mall was busy. There was some bike displays and stuff going on over there. We were expecting to see Q represented but no one from there was there that we saw anyway.
          For anyone who may read this I don't know about you but I am keeping an eye on the radiation that is blowing our way from Japan. Wow I feel so bad for those guys. As if it isn't bad enough to be hit with a earth quake and a sunami but to have to deal with this nuclear disaster as well. I wish one could get accurate information about this and not just the lies and chatter of the main stream media. You can't trust anything they tell you. It is all agenda driven. They speak only what they are told to speak. Chuck and I were listening to the radio at 9:00p.m. to catch the news and we noticed that not one word was spoken about the nuclear disaster in Japan today. This is because the media are being told to stear us away from that situation and get back to concentrating on Libya and so forth. The very idea that they are telling us that there is no threat from the radiation and that radiation is good for you just burns my cookies. Japans leaders aren't being honest with their citizens because they don't want people to panic. The U.S. leaders are lying about the radiation blowing our way saying we have nothing to worry about. This is pure hogwash. NO amount of radiation is good for you. NONE! Don't wait and see what happens. Prepare! and then even if it turns out to be much ado about nothing you will have what you need in case anything should ever happen. People have become so apathetic they won't move unless a stick of dynamite is placed under them, and then they don't take things seriously until it is too late. To be fore warned is to be fore armed.
          There now I have spoken my piece for another day and can sleep better tonight knowing that I have.

One before going to sleep.

          I know its been a few days, and I am going to have to keep this one on the shorter side because it is getting late and I need to get to bed.
          So tomorrow I turn 53. This seems strange to me. I never expected to make it to 20 and now in 2 years if I am still around, I will be eligible for senior citizen discounts. How funny is that? Well it won't be the most exciting birthday I have ever had. We are going to Old Country Buffett in Burnsville for lunch. This is my final choice after going round and round with lots of choices. Chuck wants to stop at Gander Mountain to buy a pair of what else, camoflage or (however you spell it) pants. He also wants to go to Staples for some kind of card on sale. I want to go to Saver's and it will probably be the one in Apple Valley. From there we are going to the MOA for some laps. I wanted to take a movie in at first but I don't think there will be time for that and everything else. Its ok Im cool with that. So really what tomorrow boils down to is doing most of our usual Saturday stuff on Friday. Last Saturday I didn't even want to go out, all I wanted to do was sleep and I did until almost 4:00 in the afternoon. I enjoyed every minute of it too. It was fun to have a long lazy weekend for a change.
          I can't decide weather I want to get our Walmart shopping done earlier or later tomorrow I am leaning towards earlier just to get it over with.
          I was thinking that Savers would be fun because we are going home to Wisconsin to visit for Easter and I thought maybe I might find some little outfits for my neices baby girl. She is turning a year old right around then. Her name is Oceanna. What a pretty name.
          People used to tell me my name was pretty when I was a little girl but I hated my name back then and couldn't figure out why anyone would think Tammy was a pretty name. It was just a reflection of how I felt about myself. Now I like my name and wouldn't want to be called anything else.
          Anyway I am just rambling here. Something that is so amazing to me is how I can go from feeling comfortable to cold body temperature wise, to being roasting hot and breaking out into a sweat on my forhead and face in just a matter of seconds. Which leads me to, I bought a new product to try for menopause thats supposed ease up on all menopausal symptoms. This stuff has helped 85% of the women who have tried it supposedly, so I will wait and see. Otherwise this summer could be very uncomfortable and I have been having enough problems this winter.
          So anyway thats it for now. Maybe I will report back in tomorrow to say how our day went. Till then.

Back again

          I saved something I started writing a couple of days ago but I can't find what happened to it.  Anyway what I was saying the other day is that I feel much more refreshed now and am ready to get back to work here.
          Everytime someone says or does something to us we have choices to make as to how we will respond back.
          I have discovered that responding back in a negative or vengeful way is counter pro-ductive. Thats not to say that I still don't do it at times, but I don't want to or like to anymore. It serves no purpose at all. People that do that kind of stuff are ugly inside. They are angry, bitter and in general unhappy. This was me for a long time. I had a very sarcastic mouthy attitude at  just about everything and everyone.
          There are no gaurentees in this life that everything will go our way or that it is even supposed to go our way.
          People do not like to give much stock in the story of Adam and Eve (Adam by the way is the Hebrew word for man and Eve means mother of all living.) However the truth of the matter is that when Eve disobeyed G-d and ate of the fruit of the knowledge of good and evil is when all of our problems with things going our way and bad things happening, began.
          If you aren't saved then you have no hope in G-d and if you have no hope in G-d then I can understand why choosing good reponses to things said or done, or bad responses wouldn't matter.
          The truth is that we are spiritual beings and that there is a war going on in the spirit world for our spirits. Satan (which is the Hebrew word for adversary) is very much alive and well. He hates us and wants to take as many of us as possible down to hell with him. Even though we can't see into the spirit world does not mean that it doesn't exsist. The reason Satan hates us so much is because we are G-d's creation and Satan hates G-d and anything and everything to do with Him.
          I read a book and saw a video by a surgeon whose name is Dr. Maurice Rawlings. He wrote the book because he said he noticed that there was much talk and written about peoples near death encounters that were only positive and that he being a surgeon saw many negative encounters as well but that nothing was ever mentioned about them. He had people dying on the operating table for a few minutes and being brought back to life and begging to not be sent back down to that awful place again. Check it out for yourself, do a google search on Dr. Maurice Rawlings. The name of the book and video is called "To Hell and Back".
          Hell is as real as Heaven is. Whenever I hear of a volcano erupting I usually say or think or both, "hell is belching". Thats what the lava is, a little taste of whats in hell. The Bible says that hell is in the middle of the earth and just as I have read many encounters of people going to heaven, I have read many encounters of people going to hell as well. And no, you will not be partying with your friends down there. It is a place of isolation and desperation and pain and sorrow and horror. It is a place of burning from head to toe and feeling every bit of it. It is a place of worms crawling all over you and you feeling them in and out of you. Whatever your vice was in this life is what you will be punished with over and over and over for ever and ever and ever. Some people can't wrap their minds around such an awful place and that thats where you will be if you dont get saved. But G-d's word is true and faithful and Jesus talked about hell more then anyone else ever did.
          I will explain these things in more detail as I go along here. They are things that need to be said. G-d is very serious about what He says and is not to be trifled with.

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          This may be the last time I write in here for awhile. The depression is just to much to deal with lately even with the anti-depressants. I can't seem to keep up with even the smallest things lately. I don't think I will be missed anyway so I will only blog when I truly have something to say.
          I urge anyone who may read this blog to get your spiritual lives in order and get saved. Time is getting shorter and shorter to make eternal decisions. Even so you could walk out of your home or across the street or anywhere for that matter tonight or tomorrow and be struck down and killed. Do you know where you would go from then? It isn't something to mess with.
Read John 3:16-17. And God speed to you.

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          Not feeling so well the last couple of days. I have been doing a lot of sleeping. I am hoping to get back into walking next week then. By the time I get up this week the day is just about gone.
          Tomorrow Chuck and I are going to eat at Fogo De Chao. They have a special going on where you can have all the food you can eat for $30.00 per person instead of the usual $50.00 per person. This was Chuck's idea because he likes all the meat you can get. I just enjoy all of it. Everything is so good and the wait staff are so nice. Chuck is getting done with work at 5 and then we are driving over to the MOA and from there taking the light rail downtown. It will be nice to be doing something different and I always enjoy a trip downtown, one of my favorite places to hang. Downtown St Paul is even better. I can't wait until they have the light rail going over there as well.
          I have been feeling lonely lately. I can't wait until I am released from this eddy and can get back into life again. The depression hits me at the oddest times.
Like right now, just before heading off to bed.
          I want to live life to the fullest if I can and enjoy every moment I can until life changes forever. It is weird how the smallest things can make me feel so over
whelmed sometimes. Lately I have been feeling like a helpless little baby. It is all I can do to get my daily chores done.
          Anyway I pray everyone who might read this has a great night and a great day tomorrow.
          Sorry if I offended anyone over at Box of feelings just for you. I was teasing and kidding when I wrote what I wrote.    Later.