Hi

Ok, so its been months since I have written anything in here. No one reads this so who cares anyway. I will do this for myself then.
I am starting to go through menopause and it is kind of taking its toll on me. All I want to do is sleep. I have to force myself to get up and I sure hope and pray that these hot flashes end quickly rather then being drawn out for years as I have read they can be.
I am not a winter person any longer. It used to be my favorite time of year for many years but no longer and especially when it gets really cold out so that I wouldn't even want to go out and walk. After 5 1/2 years of walking the halls, I am so bored with them I can hardly stand it anymore. I have been slacking and have to force myself to get out there. Its been pretty bad since Thanksgiving.
Anyway, the L-rd has been calling me to a deeper relationship with Him and it is just another thing I have been struggling with lately. I really don't want anything this world has to offer anymore. He has met all of my/our needs and I know He will continue to do so. All He wants is me and my time and its been like pulling teeth especially lately. When I sit down and clear all the junk from my head then I sense and feel my heart panting after Him. Truly He is all I want or need. I feel as though I have stepped off of a cliff and am falling in slow motion. Father please help me to keep on pushing through this and come out on the other side closer to you. Oh love that will not let me go.
The rubber is going to start meeting the road very shortly with everyones lives and when the hard times start happening and they will, it is not a question of if but when exactly, then where will we stand and what will we do, and who will we stand for. Everyone will be tried and tested. I pray that G-d will help me to stay strong and endure to the end.