Friday, December 31, 2010
#links
#links Soccer was a game I could actually play pretty well. I really sucked at sports for the most part though. I wonder why it is that singing groups these days steel old songs for their back round music. Inna gadda da vida anyone.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Box of feelings just for you: funny street performer
Box of feelings just for you: funny street performer
This is silly just like me. I can actually see myself doing something silly like this.
This is silly just like me. I can actually see myself doing something silly like this.
Box of feelings just for you: never back down soundtrack
Box of feelings just for you: never back down soundtrack
Is this how you are feeling mf (sorry Im not one much for swearing)? Sometimes I have gone for years being stuck on a person. Its like a log getting caught in an eddy while it was floating down the river. Most of my adult life seems to be in these kind of situations. Yes you can love someone and be with someone else and love them as well at the same time. I am living walking proof of this. My husband knows this as well about me. I think sometimes I care to much and it gets me into trouble. Even though I have never had children I seem to have a nurturing side to my personality. The anti depressants I take dull my emotions except for really heavy duty ones and they pop up only every now and then. I just started going through menopause and boy is that ever interesting emotionally speaking. And the hot flashes can stop any time now too. Well I'll let you go sorry for blathering.
Is this how you are feeling mf (sorry Im not one much for swearing)? Sometimes I have gone for years being stuck on a person. Its like a log getting caught in an eddy while it was floating down the river. Most of my adult life seems to be in these kind of situations. Yes you can love someone and be with someone else and love them as well at the same time. I am living walking proof of this. My husband knows this as well about me. I think sometimes I care to much and it gets me into trouble. Even though I have never had children I seem to have a nurturing side to my personality. The anti depressants I take dull my emotions except for really heavy duty ones and they pop up only every now and then. I just started going through menopause and boy is that ever interesting emotionally speaking. And the hot flashes can stop any time now too. Well I'll let you go sorry for blathering.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Hi
Ok, so its been months since I have written anything in here. No one reads this so who cares anyway. I will do this for myself then.
I am starting to go through menopause and it is kind of taking its toll on me. All I want to do is sleep. I have to force myself to get up and I sure hope and pray that these hot flashes end quickly rather then being drawn out for years as I have read they can be.
I am not a winter person any longer. It used to be my favorite time of year for many years but no longer and especially when it gets really cold out so that I wouldn't even want to go out and walk. After 5 1/2 years of walking the halls, I am so bored with them I can hardly stand it anymore. I have been slacking and have to force myself to get out there. Its been pretty bad since Thanksgiving.
Anyway, the L-rd has been calling me to a deeper relationship with Him and it is just another thing I have been struggling with lately. I really don't want anything this world has to offer anymore. He has met all of my/our needs and I know He will continue to do so. All He wants is me and my time and its been like pulling teeth especially lately. When I sit down and clear all the junk from my head then I sense and feel my heart panting after Him. Truly He is all I want or need. I feel as though I have stepped off of a cliff and am falling in slow motion. Father please help me to keep on pushing through this and come out on the other side closer to you. Oh love that will not let me go.
The rubber is going to start meeting the road very shortly with everyones lives and when the hard times start happening and they will, it is not a question of if but when exactly, then where will we stand and what will we do, and who will we stand for. Everyone will be tried and tested. I pray that G-d will help me to stay strong and endure to the end.
I am starting to go through menopause and it is kind of taking its toll on me. All I want to do is sleep. I have to force myself to get up and I sure hope and pray that these hot flashes end quickly rather then being drawn out for years as I have read they can be.
I am not a winter person any longer. It used to be my favorite time of year for many years but no longer and especially when it gets really cold out so that I wouldn't even want to go out and walk. After 5 1/2 years of walking the halls, I am so bored with them I can hardly stand it anymore. I have been slacking and have to force myself to get out there. Its been pretty bad since Thanksgiving.
Anyway, the L-rd has been calling me to a deeper relationship with Him and it is just another thing I have been struggling with lately. I really don't want anything this world has to offer anymore. He has met all of my/our needs and I know He will continue to do so. All He wants is me and my time and its been like pulling teeth especially lately. When I sit down and clear all the junk from my head then I sense and feel my heart panting after Him. Truly He is all I want or need. I feel as though I have stepped off of a cliff and am falling in slow motion. Father please help me to keep on pushing through this and come out on the other side closer to you. Oh love that will not let me go.
The rubber is going to start meeting the road very shortly with everyones lives and when the hard times start happening and they will, it is not a question of if but when exactly, then where will we stand and what will we do, and who will we stand for. Everyone will be tried and tested. I pray that G-d will help me to stay strong and endure to the end.
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